Letting 'It' Go Will Set You Free.....~

As you know, i have been having a lot 0f thoughts lately which are disturbing my peace of mind and i dun think i can handle that anymore.... So, I think...its about time that... i get down to a decision, a resolution , an escape and a goodbye to all the miseries, pains & tears in my heart.....Untill yesterday...I was suffering.......asking God...why i am always the one to suffer...? the one to get all twisted at the end...? the one thats always gota give & not take...?...I kept blaming myself also..for being too naive .... n for letting it happen AGAIN... So, past couple of days.. have been hell for me.. guilts, blames, tears & pain lingered in my heart.... but now... i've realized that... this is not helping me.... this is not going to make me feel any better at all....... Nothing is going to change.... if i keep on whinning, regretting or blaming myself for all the things thats happened. This is immature...childish... and not the rite way to make yourself better.I guess, the best way to get over it with cud be by trying to be 'mature' and appreciating the 'past' & 'present'. Although i am letting 'it' go.. that doesn not mean, i am trying to get over the blast of the past i had.... The 'laughters' , 'smiles', 'happiness' & 'fun' i came to know again in my lyf shall always be remembered... & kept safe within my heart.Life is too short ... and i dun think i should spend its precious time by feeling sorri for myself. Watever had been done... should be appreciated... cos at that time.. i was happy... content... satisfied...with everything ... :) i am not saying i gona let it go.. and then be nostalgic about that that... no..its not that. what i mean is.. i gona keep those things in my heart... n be grateful that it all happened....though it didnt last long.Since the present matters most... waz i shud concentrate rite now... should be my family... studies ... & work.... i gona embed my lyf in trying to achieve my aims & goals... i gota wake up and get 'real' u know .. No more being anxious about whether he gona 'sms' me when he gets up... or whether..he gona come 'online'...or even care enuff to gime a call... enuff of that.. Its just too tiring to 'wait' ... plus its really painful when it doesnt meet ur expectation. So,I gona let it all go....... its not that i am fed up and decided not to care....... its cos... this seems to be the best way.... to move on ... with my life... I had my moments with 'him' n i am satisfied... Now, its about time that i move on...... yea.... i shud.... dont u think?