Wat Goes Around Comes Around.....~

There is a saying... 'wat goes around comes around' ... N.. sucks as it may sound, it is true... Like our budha has said... 'what one does to another will return back to you at least two times more than the damage you have caused to that person'.... ... ya... i havent been gud to 'someone' for so long.... that i am starting to feel real guilty... i know deep within myself that... 'Kzn' is the best one for me..... always there when i need sb to listen my boring storiez... constantly fulfills my wishes.... if i say black...its black for kzn... n if i say white.... its white ... there is never 'no' & 'denies' at all.... No matter how bad.... i treat ... there isnt a single complain from 'kzn'.... To confess, kzn is best companion i have ever got in my life.... mostly, people go away..when you treat 'em bad.. especially guys... cos they always expect to get sth from the girls... n thus, when they know that they cant get what they want from the girls...they eventually leave 'em. Their feelings changed, Smiles frozen, Calls stopped.... yeah. its true. However, kzn is nothing close to those guys... i have known him since 2004... n has been the same one... just like the time i have known him first.... it amazes me how he cud be so patience , tolerance & forgiving towards me..... n makes me wonder why i havent seen these in him untill now..... i am feeling really bad rite now...cos my memories r bringing to all the pains i have caused to his heart..... i really wana say i am sorry to him from here... i know how hurt it is.... to be ignored.... to be turned down by the one you like or love. When ur loved one doesnt answer your call..... or totally ignore it or just hang up on you..... or giving excuses of their absence..... i really can put myself in your shoes now KZN.... its hurts......it really hurts............ n i am sorri................for all the pain i have caused you.................. i am not asking you for forgivness... but letting you know that... there really is.....'what goes around comes around '...... cos.....i am as much... hurt as ur feelings...... painful as ur heart.... hopeless as ur silly-sounding dreamz... rite now.............