LiP Gloss ~

I totally recommend Loreal Glam Shine Lip Gloss... This Volumizing Lipcolor will make your lips look fuller! It Has Moisture-drenched formula but no sticky texture..so, great to apply...Plus it really lasts long even when you r out walking around in the city or ... MwAh MwAh WiF Yr BoO BoO..!! ;)

Jay !

Jay Chou - Bai Se Feng CheLuRvE IT....! :)

Jay Chou Fever ~

Been Listening to Jay Chou alot these days... esp the one : Ja-Rule Vs Jay Chou - Always Cant Open Ur Mouth. It a remix version by Dj Simon of Jay's pop hit song Always Cant Opent Ur Mouth. Listen to it if you have a chance.. its amazing. :-)To confess i realli dont know many of jay'z songs. i was introduced to his songs by a frd of mine who gime only one of his songs. i totally went crazie over it once i listened. so, i started collecting more of his songs... got many more from Vobo (my housemate). thanks to him. Okay... thats enuff about it. here is small bio of Jay ... & his hot pix ;-)DOB: January 18, 1979 Birthplace: TaiwanHometown: Linkou Family: Mom & Dad (divorced)Pets: dog (lives with his grandma)Musical Instruments: Piano, Cello, Guitar, Drums Height: 173cm (about 5'7")Weight: 60kg (132lbs)Bloodtype: OEducation: Taipei Tan Jiang High School, graduated 1997Clothing Style: Hooded sweatshirts, ball caps, cool jeans, sleeveless tees,Musical Style: R&B, Rap, Ballad, Rock, PopRecordingCompany: Alfa MusicPerson Jay owes most for his career: Former manager: Jacky WuFavorite Sport: BasketballFavorite Food: Mom's cooking, and Kentucky Fried ChickenFirst Released Single: He Sei You Mo (Black Humor)

Mother's Arms

I wish I was a child again,Nestled in my mother's arms.I long to hear "It'll be all right,"As she gently strokes my hair.'Cause grownup problems can seem too tough.Hard to face them on my own.I wish I was a child again,Nestled in my mother's arms.--Jo A. WittI mizz you mom..................... :(

Sleepless night.....

Its 3 in the morning... and i still can't go to sleep yet... just finished talking with my good old frd Ingyin from gtalk.... it was great to talk with her......Well...........My eyes r like realli tired rite now..and so is my mind..... but i duno why my heart is still restless .. i cant fall asleep you know..... May be its cos 'he' keeps disturbing me whenever i close my eyes and try to sleep............. that sucks...Actually, i know i am not supposed to mizz him...,. not supposed to wait for his call nor sms.... n not supposed to wait him online....... because... i know from deep within my heart that... i dun EXIST in his world........ & all the words he says r just 'bluff'... however... sigh....... :( if u cud hear me.........Hear me say...' i mizz you alot' although i know its time for me to let you go.......................

Wat Goes Around Comes Around.....~

There is a saying... 'wat goes around comes around' ... N.. sucks as it may sound, it is true... Like our budha has said... 'what one does to another will return back to you at least two times more than the damage you have caused to that person'.... ... ya... i havent been gud to 'someone' for so long.... that i am starting to feel real guilty... i know deep within myself that... 'Kzn' is the best one for me..... always there when i need sb to listen my boring storiez... constantly fulfills my wishes.... if i say black...its black for kzn... n if i say white.... its white ... there is never 'no' & 'denies' at all.... No matter how bad.... i treat ... there isnt a single complain from 'kzn'.... To confess, kzn is best companion i have ever got in my life.... mostly, people go away..when you treat 'em bad.. especially guys... cos they always expect to get sth from the girls... n thus, when they know that they cant get what they want from the girls...they eventually leave 'em. Their feelings changed, Smiles frozen, Calls stopped.... yeah. its true. However, kzn is nothing close to those guys... i have known him since 2004... n has been the same one... just like the time i have known him first.... it amazes me how he cud be so patience , tolerance & forgiving towards me..... n makes me wonder why i havent seen these in him untill now..... i am feeling really bad rite now...cos my memories r bringing to all the pains i have caused to his heart..... i really wana say i am sorry to him from here... i know how hurt it is.... to be ignored.... to be turned down by the one you like or love. When ur loved one doesnt answer your call..... or totally ignore it or just hang up on you..... or giving excuses of their absence..... i really can put myself in your shoes now KZN.... its hurts......it really hurts............ n i am sorri................for all the pain i have caused you.................. i am not asking you for forgivness... but letting you know that... there really is.....'what goes around comes around '...... cos.....i am as much... hurt as ur feelings...... painful as ur heart.... hopeless as ur silly-sounding dreamz... rite now.............

Letting 'It' Go Will Set You Free.....~

As you know, i have been having a lot 0f thoughts lately which are disturbing my peace of mind and i dun think i can handle that anymore.... So, I think...its about time that... i get down to a decision, a resolution , an escape and a goodbye to all the miseries, pains & tears in my heart.....Untill yesterday...I was suffering.......asking God...why i am always the one to suffer...? the one to get all twisted at the end...? the one thats always gota give & not take...?...I kept blaming myself also..for being too naive .... n for letting it happen AGAIN... So, past couple of days.. have been hell for me.. guilts, blames, tears & pain lingered in my heart.... but now... i've realized that... this is not helping me.... this is not going to make me feel any better at all....... Nothing is going to change.... if i keep on whinning, regretting or blaming myself for all the things thats happened. This is immature...childish... and not the rite way to make yourself better.I guess, the best way to get over it with cud be by trying to be 'mature' and appreciating the 'past' & 'present'. Although i am letting 'it' go.. that doesn not mean, i am trying to get over the blast of the past i had.... The 'laughters' , 'smiles', 'happiness' & 'fun' i came to know again in my lyf shall always be remembered... & kept safe within my heart.Life is too short ... and i dun think i should spend its precious time by feeling sorri for myself. Watever had been done... should be appreciated... cos at that time.. i was happy... content... satisfied...with everything ... :) i am not saying i gona let it go.. and then be nostalgic about that that... no..its not that. what i mean is.. i gona keep those things in my heart... n be grateful that it all happened....though it didnt last long.Since the present matters most... waz i shud concentrate rite now... should be my family... studies ... & work.... i gona embed my lyf in trying to achieve my aims & goals... i gota wake up and get 'real' u know .. No more being anxious about whether he gona 'sms' me when he gets up... or whether..he gona come 'online'...or even care enuff to gime a call... enuff of that.. Its just too tiring to 'wait' ... plus its really painful when it doesnt meet ur expectation. So,I gona let it all go....... its not that i am fed up and decided not to care....... its cos... this seems to be the best way.... to move on ... with my life... I had my moments with 'him' n i am satisfied... Now, its about time that i move on...... yea.... i shud.... dont u think?

A Letter from My Heart to Me ~

Dear 'T'....I have been feeling all torn these days... 'cos when hopes fail, dreams shatter & future becomes a blur, i have become really cynical, depressed, confused, hurt & down to the ditch. There arent much consoling words when you realize that your expectations are just so far away from the reality and I don't know what to do anymore except writing this letter to 'T', the owner of my heart, for comfort.According to great poets, being in love should be the greatest thing in life. It should put a smile on you even when you are asleep, it should give you strength when you feel like you have lost everything in you, it should like a river, cut a new path, whenever it meets an obstacle.... but when that love is lost... you become all melancholy, rejected & sore... It makes you wana give up everything you have ever own in life... :(You know that i haven't too lucky with 'love' in life.... i have been in love for only one time... and it turned out to be a disaster...the moments you wish you cud buried and never dig up. It took me long months to forget the pains & tears ... but the cuts & scars would not go away......until i met 'him'. 'He' brought back the sunshine, the laughters, the cheer, the joy, the hapiness into my life... dark & misty clouds were driven away by the bright rays... yes, i was happy again. It was like a miracle .... all of a sudden i felt great to be alive... i cudnt wait for another day to come....each day i woke up with a smile... & ended it with a pleasant dreamz.... No matter how tough my day was, just one sms or a short call from him cud make it all better. His voice has unbelieveable power to stop my pains & tears & i can never get enough of it. His smiles always make my heart skips & butterflies fly in my stomach. yeah...he was that special to me... :) i thanked god....for letting 'him' into my life... and i prayed this would never end... but... unlucky as i have always been, my wish wasnt fulfilled.... .. cos..all that bright sunshine he has brought into my life... are now fading away these days. I duno what make it responsible for the things that r changing day by day... . i feel like he and me are now world apart... and i duno how to get near him anymore..... there are hardly any phone calls nor sms from him to cheer me up as usual to carry on my days.... & even if we did talk... the 'sparks' we used to have are now gone... just plain dull conversations have become our normal talks... i duno why this happened ... and i have no idea & strength to fix it. I am hurt & in pain..... but all i can do is just 'suffer' cos... i am feeling this cannot be changed anymore. May be.... it was just fun for him.... someone to fool around while he was bored....May be i was just daydreaming that he had 'sth' for me... May be...i am just a stupid kid he can never get serious with... May be .... he has found someone more mature, sophisticated & prettier than me... No matter wat the reason is... it is not making me feel right at all... and i hopelessly want the stings that are constantly in my heart to go away... i wana b enthralled, beguiled & optimistic about life...just like i felt when i met him.... what should i do.......to get all that back..? is there any ways left 't'??? :( :( :( or am i too late....??????? Come save..... & Console me with your words 'T'............ cos i have got no one except you to heal............ sigh ~ ~ ~ ps: oh.... how i wish he cud see me suffering like this...... ...................................

Recent Me ~

Here are some recent photos of me... yeap, i have gained weight... My Puffy Face is the EviDence!!! :P:P

When I Am Hurting~

It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.If only you'd hold me, without asking why.If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings. But it's the easy roads that are most often taken.And so I hurt alone.--Jo A. Witt